I do a lot of thinking before I go to sleep:
- i play scenes in my head
- i practice the things i want to say
- i have endless 'what IFs'
- i make plans for the next day
- i think of all the people i miss
- i think of all the ones i hate
- i ask myself a lot of questions
[April 17] 11:44
Situation: Jeremy, Ben, Eugene, Nick.
Where do I start? It's been a complicated month. First, with me and Jeremy. Honestly, I thought I did like him, but now that we are in a "relationship", not anymore. Is that bad of me? But, isn't it normal for a living being to have their own complications? Well... even if it is going to end soon, and even if I will have to end things soon, it will be next week or so. Sorry Ines <3.
Now with you. Well, congratulations! After all that love-hate relationship, you guys finally made it. Let's just not hope for a deja vu.
But guess what. Life doesn't always give you perfect lemons. There are always that one or two lemons that won't help you make the perfect lemonade. And guess who that is at this very moment? You guessed right! Ben and Eugene. It is very sweet of them for liking you THAT much, but honestly back off guys. She has a girlfriend and it's not her fault that you guys aren't better than Nick. Am I right or am i right?
Well, in all seriousness, we are in yet another crisis. Hence - ALL HEROES APPLY.
to the people that i am very pissed at right not xD not trying to be pathetic but just read my mind.
ines: we're not friends, we're strangers with memories. and if somebody asks if i know you, i'll just smile and say that i used to. because you're worth less than that to me. so back off guys, my territory.
[May 17] 9:23
Situation: Amy, Yoon
Not a lot, just six words. Somebody that I used to know.
Elaboration needed?
We were friends, but things happen. And things did happen. It all started with Jeremy and there came misunderstandings as well as a mishap of timings. This resulted to a massive fight, which led to mouths telling other mouths and just like that, words spread like wildfire. And this resulted in a lesson: words never stay between two people; they spread. Lesson clearly learned. Therefore, these two people are people that I used to know.
Not anymore but still, all heroes apply.
ines: my situation is that whenever I try to write "i n e s" on this site, it autocorrects to "mines". But Jisoo--> it's the last few weeks of middle school.. Can you believe that? We've been living for 15 years and we will NEVER be able to be in middle school ever again. Unless you're buddhist and you believe that reincarnation exists- no, you only live once and this is the kind of lifetime that you are granted. So what I'm saying is, don't let stupid things or more like stupid people get in your way of living that one, amazing lifetime you have. Who knows if you'll ever see these bitches (I'm not referring to anybody) again? They're just there to prevent your life from being perfect, because nothing can be perfect. It's a universal law, there's NOTHING in this world that's perfect. No circle is perfect. And so, fate brings you all these little complications and very annoying problems, like maybe your situation right now? I'm not sure why you're so stressed but you did seem pretty tired today. So let's push those little complications away. Just push it away and never look at it again. It's easy!
[September 16] 9:33
The time when everything else was malfunctioning.
So I made a vow to myself: I will have no social life.
[December 31] 2:24 am
Problematic? Wow thats an encouraging label for a website. NO PROBLEMS SARAH. Screw all those problems. Leave them for tomorrow, 오늘은 걱정같은거하지말고, 내일 어차피 또 걱정할거자나 그치? As of now, nothing's problematic. We start off new and fresh and clean and we begin again from pit bottom. INTRO. Its a new introduction. I wonder what the first word will be.. "Once upon a time...."
Problematic? Wow thats an encouraging label for a website. NO PROBLEMS SARAH. Screw all those problems. Leave them for tomorrow, 오늘은 걱정같은거하지말고, 내일 어차피 또 걱정할거자나 그치? As of now, nothing's problematic. We start off new and fresh and clean and we begin again from pit bottom. INTRO. Its a new introduction. I wonder what the first word will be.. "Once upon a time...."
[August 19th] 11:24 pm
Situation: us
I wish we were problem-less. But since you're gone... that's a new problem.
I just wish you were back. I regret having all those fights with you... it was such a waste of time. I regret leaving you to study... all those memories we could've made. All those moments that I could've spent with you are now gone.. wasted. I'm sorry for being such a bad friend. I haven't been able to be with you every time you laughed or cried for the past year. Sorry.
But, I'm also grateful for having a friend like you. No matter how many times I disappear throughout the day, you always look for me and you're always concerned. Because of you, what could've been a tedious 3 years, went by just like that. I love you Michelle and whenever you feel lonely in your new school, know that you have me! I'll always listen to you and reach out to you when you need it. And, of course, if you can't say it to me directly, know that we always have AHA.
I'll seriously miss you lots.
Situation: us
I wish we were problem-less. But since you're gone... that's a new problem.
I just wish you were back. I regret having all those fights with you... it was such a waste of time. I regret leaving you to study... all those memories we could've made. All those moments that I could've spent with you are now gone.. wasted. I'm sorry for being such a bad friend. I haven't been able to be with you every time you laughed or cried for the past year. Sorry.
But, I'm also grateful for having a friend like you. No matter how many times I disappear throughout the day, you always look for me and you're always concerned. Because of you, what could've been a tedious 3 years, went by just like that. I love you Michelle and whenever you feel lonely in your new school, know that you have me! I'll always listen to you and reach out to you when you need it. And, of course, if you can't say it to me directly, know that we always have AHA.
I'll seriously miss you lots.