We are best friends, but even best friends have awkward moments, and those awkward moments aren't very pleasant. And so- whispers, the page to say everything and anything that can't even be said out loud anywhere else. People may hack into our chats but no one hacks into ALL HEROES APPLY. Its a secure server, we're free to say everything.
Whispers #1: We've come to know about Michelle Ahn's past, but should that really affect us from being friends with her? Should it really have an impact on whether she was planning to suicide?
Whispers #2: We've all come to know about Ines' crush: Andrew. Let's see how it works out because we all know that if Andrew turns her down, he'll be the moron.
Whispers #3: Obstacles come and go through life. But, does it always have to be boys? Jisoo is in consideration of what she should be doing with her life right now. Is he worth it? And even if he is... does she even like him?
Whispers #4: Doubts. Doubts. Doubts. Thoughts come and go. Thoughts that shouldn't be allowed. Will someone help me let these thoughts go away? These doubts? Please, ALL HEROES APPLY.
Whispers #5: Honest. I'm being totally honest. This is Ines here, and here to confess my TRUE feelings. Andrew can be a total sonofabitch sometimes looking back at what he did to you. But, I feel a bit different about him. It's nothing big, but he makes me feel.. Happy? That's the definition of a crush right? Meaning, I'm scared to lose that. I sound very pathetic right now, like a girl living for this one guy in the world, not completely wrong, but you know. Of course, I think that probably, IF I ask him out, he would probably go with a YES. But there's always the fair chance that he wouldn't. I'm so scared to do it myself and scared to see his reaction that I'm asking YOU to do it for me. Its probably so much to ask, but I trust you. I'm scared Jisoo, for the first time in forever. Okay, getting a little dramatic. But just wanted you to know my true feelings for him. And, its also true that I'm desperate for a boyfriend. I feel so lonely, you know? Really hope this turns out well. Really, please, to all the heavens of this Earth. Got a good feeling? #allheroesapply
Whispers #6: Today, January 27th, hasn't been a good day and we all know it. And constantly you, Ines, have asked me to tell you what Andrew has said, and I'll be completely honest with you here, but I lied to you. And I know that you still have feelings for him because feelings just don't go away. And I also know that I have told you that ignorance is bliss. But, here I am about to show you what he has said about you because I know that you're gonna ask me again tomorrow, but I don't think I'll be able to show it to you in person. So... before you carry on reading these messages... I want you to know that he's the biggest moron that I've ever seen. He doesn't know what's what. He doesn't have good judgment. So, just try to get over this Ines. I know it won't be easy, but he isn't worth it. #allheroesapply.
So... I thought these photos needed an explanation at first, so here goes nothing!
Photo #1: So before I told him that the person who liked him was you, I just wanted to know what his reaction will be if he knew that someone liked him. But... that went terribly wrong. I'm sorry. I really am :(
Photo #2 through Photo #6: So these messages are basically what happened after I actually told him it was you. Check the time of all these messages including Photo #1. You'll know that I talked about something else and came back to this subject.
I know that I didn't do a good job on trying to match you guys up, but I tried... I'm sorry if you think it was because of me, but I really tried. All heroes please apply.
Whispers #1: We've come to know about Michelle Ahn's past, but should that really affect us from being friends with her? Should it really have an impact on whether she was planning to suicide?
Whispers #2: We've all come to know about Ines' crush: Andrew. Let's see how it works out because we all know that if Andrew turns her down, he'll be the moron.
Whispers #3: Obstacles come and go through life. But, does it always have to be boys? Jisoo is in consideration of what she should be doing with her life right now. Is he worth it? And even if he is... does she even like him?
Whispers #4: Doubts. Doubts. Doubts. Thoughts come and go. Thoughts that shouldn't be allowed. Will someone help me let these thoughts go away? These doubts? Please, ALL HEROES APPLY.
Whispers #5: Honest. I'm being totally honest. This is Ines here, and here to confess my TRUE feelings. Andrew can be a total sonofabitch sometimes looking back at what he did to you. But, I feel a bit different about him. It's nothing big, but he makes me feel.. Happy? That's the definition of a crush right? Meaning, I'm scared to lose that. I sound very pathetic right now, like a girl living for this one guy in the world, not completely wrong, but you know. Of course, I think that probably, IF I ask him out, he would probably go with a YES. But there's always the fair chance that he wouldn't. I'm so scared to do it myself and scared to see his reaction that I'm asking YOU to do it for me. Its probably so much to ask, but I trust you. I'm scared Jisoo, for the first time in forever. Okay, getting a little dramatic. But just wanted you to know my true feelings for him. And, its also true that I'm desperate for a boyfriend. I feel so lonely, you know? Really hope this turns out well. Really, please, to all the heavens of this Earth. Got a good feeling? #allheroesapply
Whispers #6: Today, January 27th, hasn't been a good day and we all know it. And constantly you, Ines, have asked me to tell you what Andrew has said, and I'll be completely honest with you here, but I lied to you. And I know that you still have feelings for him because feelings just don't go away. And I also know that I have told you that ignorance is bliss. But, here I am about to show you what he has said about you because I know that you're gonna ask me again tomorrow, but I don't think I'll be able to show it to you in person. So... before you carry on reading these messages... I want you to know that he's the biggest moron that I've ever seen. He doesn't know what's what. He doesn't have good judgment. So, just try to get over this Ines. I know it won't be easy, but he isn't worth it. #allheroesapply.
So... I thought these photos needed an explanation at first, so here goes nothing!
Photo #1: So before I told him that the person who liked him was you, I just wanted to know what his reaction will be if he knew that someone liked him. But... that went terribly wrong. I'm sorry. I really am :(
Photo #2 through Photo #6: So these messages are basically what happened after I actually told him it was you. Check the time of all these messages including Photo #1. You'll know that I talked about something else and came back to this subject.
I know that I didn't do a good job on trying to match you guys up, but I tried... I'm sorry if you think it was because of me, but I really tried. All heroes please apply.
Whispers #7: Shitty day. Yes, I'm sad and I'm devastated but its all going to be okay. By the end of this week, I'll probably be fine and forget this whole thing happened. You know what I was thinking? You and Yejune were continuously laughing and smiling and whispering, so I thought.. They're hiding something. Something GOOD. Like, a secret proposal? Yea, I know, pathetic, but that's what I thought. Even Amy came up to me and said "Sarah just told me it was something REALLY bad..", and I knew that a true friend wouldn't really say that right? I was on the verge of crying and she wouldn't say that right? So that's what I thought- something will take a turn for the better. Up until Isaac came up to me and imitated my getting dumped my Andrew, and I thought, well this can't be right. After school, I was with Yejune and I kept asking her what happened, what he said, and Yejune wouldn't tell me anything. So I come home and sleep for 2 hours, feeling, thinking, smiling. Saying that its going to be okay. No tears. But I seriously want to know what happened, so I ask you and you tell me. That Andrew thinks of me as we girls think of James and Jake. That feeling right there is NOT very good. But so what, little tears, little sighs, crappy day. Tomorrow will take a turn for the better. At least, appreciate the fact that I have great friends to help me and support me. At least, I'm alive and well, and this will all be a part of just growing up right? But yea I'm sad and disappointed. Whatever. Just. #ALLHEROESAPPLY
PS. Oops, Whispers #6 was supposed to be something good. Something happy, about YOU. Dang. Its something shitty.
Whispers #8
DO I FRIGGIN STILL LIKE NICK? I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT.
Honestly, just until yesterday, I was like, definitely, no. This is over now. But after like now? I don't know exactly what changed but something tells me that maybe its not so bad to take another chance. I don't know if it's peer pressure or what people are telling me but, I'm not sure! Should I take another shot?
Major complication #1. Isaac? Man, he tells me that he likes me and I tell him okay, maybe me too and then he just. moves on. to Katie. So that's over right? But it's still stuck in my head. I still have feelings for him, if you didn't already notice, he's like. makes me. feel. something. But I guess all that went to Katie. DANG, I lost the perfect opportunity. If I asked him out he would probs still say yes, but I don't do that shiz xD and plus, he's a player right? He plays with people's emotions, he makes you feel really special, when you're worth only so little to him. Not the first time, can't be fooled again..
Major complication #2. Michelle Ahn. I don't want to be involved with her again, which is why, I was hesitant in getting involved with Nick again, she practically ruined my life so why would I even take the risk. But should she really interfere with my life? Probs not right?
Major complication #3. not a major but minor actually. EUGENE AND BEN xD wow they'll be pissed, I heard Ben is going to ask me out soon.. It's not going to happen HAHAHAHA.
Major complication #4. EVERYONE ELSE? What would they think of me? I said that he was getting annoying and if I got back with him, wouldn't people be like WTF? and I sort of. do take my reputation very seriously.
But there's him. He really likes me and I sort of like him too. And I don't know if it's because you got into a relationship that I want to be with someone again but something just, GAH. I don't know! what the hell should I do? seriously. help!
Whispers #9
give it time sarah.
wait.
it'll grow.
try it out,
if it doesn't work,
then end it.
don't complicate the process. okay?
Whispers #10
We need to stop whispering. Lets get some silence.
Sick of whispering.
Whispers #11
SO RANDOM. Last whispers because you really can't tell anyone this. But--- Isaac likes Emma xD Good luck trying.
Whispers #12
Now that one month of school passed, it is impossible for there not to be whispers.
1) You. So many things to say: Nick. Nick has some problems of getting people to do what he wants in the wrong way. If you know what I mean...
2) Me. Well... I'll rather be keeping silent.
Silence #1
There's no need to whisper here. I'm now speaking in the silence.
So. It's been a rough couple of weeks with SEVERE ups and downs and now, I really don't know what to do. Setting priorities is important, but what exactly is my priority? Exams? Getting my relationships straight? Sports? High-school? What's right in front of me are just piles of homework and yet I stare farther away and make complications. Why is it that we always complicate things? We either love or hate, its good or bad, its big or small, but why is there ALWAYS something in the middle that's stuck and won't move to either side? I love and hate someone, something is good and bad and that lump feels big and small. Its not OR its AND. Okay now I'm speaking nonsense.
So, basically.
What I'm trying to say is- feelings aren't definite and they can't be perfect either. Whatever I feel or whatever you feel, don't overthink it, right? Just think that way. It can't be all that bad right? Okay. Awkward silence begins again..
Silence #2
Silence is always the best way to keep things to ourselves. Sometimes, silence works better than words.
Today, I drew the line with one of the closest person I know. Won't mention the name, but you will probably know who it is. He just makes my life so... unstable. It feels like when he needs me, I'm always there for him to support him and to stay by his side. But, what do I get? Is this a give and take relationship? No. I don't think so anyways. When I needed him to help me with the person I like, all he said was "don't like him." I mean does that seriously help someone? No. I don't think so anyways. Also, since he likes Sunhee it seems like I'm just out of his "radar" now. All we do is exchange greetings and it seems like I'm an embarrassment to him around his friends. Maybe I am.
So now... I will speak in silence. No striking conversations. The path is clear, and I will only look straight ahead.
Silence #3
Of course. How can forget to put "her" in here? She is the devil of all our lives. The origin to all our anger. Her existence is a tragedy. She bitches about us, so we bitch back. Why not? She wants to be bitched so isn't that why she got mad at us for unreasonable reasons? I'm sure she did. I swear... she's making a hate list.
Silence #4
page 365 of 365. its the last day of the year.. we made it ;)
This year has been overwhelming with all sorts of unnecessary things in the way but also a great lovable one where I made amazing memories. I don't even know where to begin. Its 2am right now and I'm just in the dark writing this but thinking about my past year makes me wonder how much I've changed, how much you've changed too, how much everything has changed. I think I walked into 2015 as a normal girl with high ambitions for high school, just someone simple and blatant- now I walk out of it more grown, matured and complicated. Do you remember everything we went through? Some of it makes me laugh, only cause I feel so pathetic about it and it feels stupid. The others, the majority, they make me smile because all of it is what has made me better. Remember our field trip? I'm not talking about all the boy drama we went through, or the time Angela got pulled into the ER, what actually stands out to me the most now is the time we stood on that hill, sobbing, clarifying, talking, the time you first walked away from me and I felt devastated because I didn't know what to do-- that time where our friendship only got stronger. Wow, we've been through so much together and we know each other only better now and I'm so thankful that I have a friend like you (ALTHOUGH YOU'RE STUCK AT A DISTANT FARAWAY LAND) to step into another new year with me, together, hand in hand. Thank you Sarah, for being with me when nobody else was, for comforting me, encouraging me, bitching with me, just standing with me. Thank you, thank you and thank you. And.. sorry or being the worst friend possible at times, but you still stayed ;) I love you! TO A BETTER YEAR? cheers!
-ines
page 365 of 365. its the last day of the year.. we made it ;)
This year has been overwhelming with all sorts of unnecessary things in the way but also a great lovable one where I made amazing memories. I don't even know where to begin. Its 2am right now and I'm just in the dark writing this but thinking about my past year makes me wonder how much I've changed, how much you've changed too, how much everything has changed. I think I walked into 2015 as a normal girl with high ambitions for high school, just someone simple and blatant- now I walk out of it more grown, matured and complicated. Do you remember everything we went through? Some of it makes me laugh, only cause I feel so pathetic about it and it feels stupid. The others, the majority, they make me smile because all of it is what has made me better. Remember our field trip? I'm not talking about all the boy drama we went through, or the time Angela got pulled into the ER, what actually stands out to me the most now is the time we stood on that hill, sobbing, clarifying, talking, the time you first walked away from me and I felt devastated because I didn't know what to do-- that time where our friendship only got stronger. Wow, we've been through so much together and we know each other only better now and I'm so thankful that I have a friend like you (ALTHOUGH YOU'RE STUCK AT A DISTANT FARAWAY LAND) to step into another new year with me, together, hand in hand. Thank you Sarah, for being with me when nobody else was, for comforting me, encouraging me, bitching with me, just standing with me. Thank you, thank you and thank you. And.. sorry or being the worst friend possible at times, but you still stayed ;) I love you! TO A BETTER YEAR? cheers!
-ines
Silence #5
It seems like we have kept things from each other (of course unintentionally). As we have slowly adopted to the high school life, we have all changed and shaped into different people. However, the only thing that remained the same was the fact that we still had moments of awkwardness, confusion, frustration, and anger. Today is April 7th, 2016 and to this day we are stuck in the middle of a silent chaos: worries about grades, friendships, and relationships. Please. I wish I can start worrying about new things.
Anyways... starting from the #1 thing I worry about, which are grades. Let's just fuck grades. Honestly, although we both have a 98% GPA it seems like I'm walking on a ledge; soon it's going to fall and it won't go back up. But that's the whole point about high school right? To think about grades, get stress, and then graduate. Well... let's hold on. We have 3 years left and that's not a lot. We just need to focus on balancing ourselves on the ledge just for a few moments and soon enough, we'll reach our final destination.
Worry #2: Relationships. We're just making our lives more complicated by thinking about this. Anyways, you and *cough* "Louis" have come a long way. It started one year ago and you guys still haven't sorted things out. Well... I'll leave it up to you to write out your silent thoughts and concerns.
For me, I'll write my side of the story... about *cough* "David" and I'll write the truth, only the truth, and nothing but the truth.
So I think this started off during winter break and I had no idea it would come this far. I thought it was a simple friendship that sparked from a simple conversation, but I was obviously wrong. With his friends always making things obvious and him always chatting me for some reason, I just kept going. But the weird thing is that it just kept going and soon I forgot that it kept going. And it came all the way here.
Okay now for the absolute truth... I might seem bitchy but I have a confession to make. I think I don't like him. Like for real. I don't think I ever truly liked him. There is/was no sudden feeling of nervousness when I send/sent a chat. I don't wait for his answer. I don't really think about him. I don't really care if this doesn't end well... If I end it now I know it might seem like I played with him, but that's really not the case and it was definitely not my intention. I think I was just so distracted with my priorities, which was studying and playing tennis, that I had no real time to think about it. It just went by so quickly. How about next time? Maybe next time things will work out better.
It seems like we have kept things from each other (of course unintentionally). As we have slowly adopted to the high school life, we have all changed and shaped into different people. However, the only thing that remained the same was the fact that we still had moments of awkwardness, confusion, frustration, and anger. Today is April 7th, 2016 and to this day we are stuck in the middle of a silent chaos: worries about grades, friendships, and relationships. Please. I wish I can start worrying about new things.
Anyways... starting from the #1 thing I worry about, which are grades. Let's just fuck grades. Honestly, although we both have a 98% GPA it seems like I'm walking on a ledge; soon it's going to fall and it won't go back up. But that's the whole point about high school right? To think about grades, get stress, and then graduate. Well... let's hold on. We have 3 years left and that's not a lot. We just need to focus on balancing ourselves on the ledge just for a few moments and soon enough, we'll reach our final destination.
Worry #2: Relationships. We're just making our lives more complicated by thinking about this. Anyways, you and *cough* "Louis" have come a long way. It started one year ago and you guys still haven't sorted things out. Well... I'll leave it up to you to write out your silent thoughts and concerns.
For me, I'll write my side of the story... about *cough* "David" and I'll write the truth, only the truth, and nothing but the truth.
So I think this started off during winter break and I had no idea it would come this far. I thought it was a simple friendship that sparked from a simple conversation, but I was obviously wrong. With his friends always making things obvious and him always chatting me for some reason, I just kept going. But the weird thing is that it just kept going and soon I forgot that it kept going. And it came all the way here.
Okay now for the absolute truth... I might seem bitchy but I have a confession to make. I think I don't like him. Like for real. I don't think I ever truly liked him. There is/was no sudden feeling of nervousness when I send/sent a chat. I don't wait for his answer. I don't really think about him. I don't really care if this doesn't end well... If I end it now I know it might seem like I played with him, but that's really not the case and it was definitely not my intention. I think I was just so distracted with my priorities, which was studying and playing tennis, that I had no real time to think about it. It just went by so quickly. How about next time? Maybe next time things will work out better.
Silence #6 April 7th, 2016 [11:46]
It's alright Jisoo, don't feel bad, feelings aren't ever guaranteed and you can't blame yourself for that. Dude but wtf is Louis and David. HAHAHA you're weird.
Anyway, I have a few things to confess, some you already know, some you might not.
To start with the things you know, "Louis" *wtf*. I'll be honest. He's such a fckboy and he's made me cry more times than I've cried about anything else and if you know me at all, I don't cry over stupid things. But why, when it comes to him, do I cry over the most stupidest things? Who gave him the right to hurt me like that, huh? Why does he have so much control over me, I hate it so much and I hate myself for being like that, but no matter how much I try, I can't not care. Even when I was with him, it's not like we had that intimate relationship or anything it was not even platonic so I don't even know what I miss about him. But I do, and its so so stupid but that's the truth. Stupid feelings, will it ever go away? Honestly this is such a stupid problem of timing. I didn't tell you because it was stupid, about 3 weeks before he asked me "one last time" if I wanted to date him, and I said no. Wow. And a week later he came up to me and said sorry for making things awkward, we can be friends. Then came spring break and we were like, ssuming, for whatever reason, I guess it came naturally? So I thought, wow, for once things are coming naturally and I really liked where we were heading. And I come to school, and he's with our pretty ass president. And now that I confess my feelings to him, he doesn't really care.
Come to talk about our pretty ass president, there's something a little bit more serious. I really hate her. No, not hate but rather envy. And you might think this is all because of "Louis" but really, cmon, I'm not THAT pathetic to hate someone purely because of a guy. But I dislike her because, to me it just seems like she can have everything. So here's the part you don't know. Or maybe you do because Angela and Yejune know, because I just burst into tears when I was with them the other day after school.
This spring break, I went to Jeju for a family trip but coincidentally, the headmaster of the boarding school that I dreamt of, was there interviewing students that were interested. And I went, all prepped and ready and walked into this super formal room where he asked me questions and I answered. But after a moment we were just having a conversation, *not to brag* but he really really liked me! Seriously, everything was perfect, he told me I could go to the school right away and my grades were good too. 그때 진짜 기분 좋았거든, 왠지 다 인연인거 같았고, 다 해결되는거 같았다고. Everything was perfect and I told my parents everything, but they weren't all that happy. Why? Cause I couldn't go anyway, no matter how well the interview went, cause it was damn expensive and my parents would never be able to afford it. So I looked for scholarships and financial aid, all of which went down the drain. 나 못갈면 어떻게? 돈 없어서 그런거자나.. I can't even be sad or cry in front of my parents because honestly I'm so thankful even now for sending me to this school 근데 내가 그러는거 보면 더 미안해하는거 싫거든.. But I'm not okay. Because everything seems so unfair.
And, my stupid ass ankle is twisted and sprained, my only freedom to run is gone for 3 months. 그래서 when I see our pretty ass president, it just makes me furious, how she can have everything so easily. It seems as if she can just easily go to the school that she wants, she's not injured, and "Louis", even HIM, she can just get him so easily without any effort. I don't hate her, she's a nice friend, but I can't stand to see her and can't stand to be next to her. Am I being too selfish? 나 왜이러는거야, 이러면 안되는데.. Wow that was a long confession. 내 얘기만 한거같아서 미안.. 근데 이런 상황인데도 너같은 친구가 있어서 다행이고 살것같다.. Thank you :) Love you.
It's alright Jisoo, don't feel bad, feelings aren't ever guaranteed and you can't blame yourself for that. Dude but wtf is Louis and David. HAHAHA you're weird.
Anyway, I have a few things to confess, some you already know, some you might not.
To start with the things you know, "Louis" *wtf*. I'll be honest. He's such a fckboy and he's made me cry more times than I've cried about anything else and if you know me at all, I don't cry over stupid things. But why, when it comes to him, do I cry over the most stupidest things? Who gave him the right to hurt me like that, huh? Why does he have so much control over me, I hate it so much and I hate myself for being like that, but no matter how much I try, I can't not care. Even when I was with him, it's not like we had that intimate relationship or anything it was not even platonic so I don't even know what I miss about him. But I do, and its so so stupid but that's the truth. Stupid feelings, will it ever go away? Honestly this is such a stupid problem of timing. I didn't tell you because it was stupid, about 3 weeks before he asked me "one last time" if I wanted to date him, and I said no. Wow. And a week later he came up to me and said sorry for making things awkward, we can be friends. Then came spring break and we were like, ssuming, for whatever reason, I guess it came naturally? So I thought, wow, for once things are coming naturally and I really liked where we were heading. And I come to school, and he's with our pretty ass president. And now that I confess my feelings to him, he doesn't really care.
Come to talk about our pretty ass president, there's something a little bit more serious. I really hate her. No, not hate but rather envy. And you might think this is all because of "Louis" but really, cmon, I'm not THAT pathetic to hate someone purely because of a guy. But I dislike her because, to me it just seems like she can have everything. So here's the part you don't know. Or maybe you do because Angela and Yejune know, because I just burst into tears when I was with them the other day after school.
This spring break, I went to Jeju for a family trip but coincidentally, the headmaster of the boarding school that I dreamt of, was there interviewing students that were interested. And I went, all prepped and ready and walked into this super formal room where he asked me questions and I answered. But after a moment we were just having a conversation, *not to brag* but he really really liked me! Seriously, everything was perfect, he told me I could go to the school right away and my grades were good too. 그때 진짜 기분 좋았거든, 왠지 다 인연인거 같았고, 다 해결되는거 같았다고. Everything was perfect and I told my parents everything, but they weren't all that happy. Why? Cause I couldn't go anyway, no matter how well the interview went, cause it was damn expensive and my parents would never be able to afford it. So I looked for scholarships and financial aid, all of which went down the drain. 나 못갈면 어떻게? 돈 없어서 그런거자나.. I can't even be sad or cry in front of my parents because honestly I'm so thankful even now for sending me to this school 근데 내가 그러는거 보면 더 미안해하는거 싫거든.. But I'm not okay. Because everything seems so unfair.
And, my stupid ass ankle is twisted and sprained, my only freedom to run is gone for 3 months. 그래서 when I see our pretty ass president, it just makes me furious, how she can have everything so easily. It seems as if she can just easily go to the school that she wants, she's not injured, and "Louis", even HIM, she can just get him so easily without any effort. I don't hate her, she's a nice friend, but I can't stand to see her and can't stand to be next to her. Am I being too selfish? 나 왜이러는거야, 이러면 안되는데.. Wow that was a long confession. 내 얘기만 한거같아서 미안.. 근데 이런 상황인데도 너같은 친구가 있어서 다행이고 살것같다.. Thank you :) Love you.